(And Realized I’m Not Really a Philosopher)

I’ve been working on my philosophy for a while now. I’ve approached it in a few different ways. First, I wanted to redefine Nihilism, because that’s kind of the closest philosophical term that I can think of, for my philosophy. Then I came up with my own term called Doodencrapenschit. It was a humorous and defensive way to say that my ‘philosophy’ wasn’t even real philosophy, so please don’t make fun of me.

Eventually I gave up on both of those aproaches and just tried to answer a lot of questions about the world and how to live in it. I’ve been thinking about these answers for many years and I’ve found answers for all of the questions that I cared about, at least to my own satisfaction. I just had to write them all down in one place.

This document turned into a 50,000 word first draft for a philosophy book. If I wanted to publish it, I’d have to refine it and expand every answer so it makes sense to someone other than me and I’m sure it will at least double in size. But I’m not going to do that, because writing it all down into one document, made one thing really obvious. It was something that I kind of already knew, somewhere in my mind, but finishing this document, helped me acknowledge it.

The thing is that this isn’t really a philosophy. It’s just my opinions on a whole lotta things. I have a lot of opinions and I feel like I’m right about all of them but that doesn’t really make it philosophy.

Or does it? Is that what philosophy is? Maybe I just have to write down my arguments in a better way.

Either way, I’m not going to publish or share that document with the world. It was just something for me. The important thing now is to apply my philosophy (opinions) in my life and see if it helps me live in a better way. Because if it doesn’t do that, then it fails as a life philosophy and there’s no point in sharing it.

While I do this, I’ll also have time to actually read other philosophers and see what others have actually said, instead of just basing my judgment of mainstream philosophy on what I’ve understood from reading Wikipedia articles on different philosophers. I can share some of my ideas here on my blog, but only after I gain more confidence in them. Perhaps, the way I’ll move forward is to take one idea at a time and write essays on them with some proper academic research and scholarship. Instead of one big book, I’ll publish a series of collections of essays.

I think in my next post, I’ll share where I’m at right now and how I’m trying to implement my ideas in my life.