Things are changing again. I’m going through a bit of a negative phase and it’s frustrating because I thought I had gotten over that phase.

But change is the only constant and there’s just no way to continue on a path that you don’t believe in anymore. I wish I could just choose a path and then stick to it without wavering. But it has never worked like that for me.

I always walk down a trail, excited to get going, but soon I slow down. I start second guessing myself. I move forward slowly; reluctantly. Then I stop and get sad. Eventually I trace my steps back and look for another trail.

I know that this way of moving through life will never get me anywhere. I know because I’ve not gotten anywhere and it’s been almost 41 years. But even with this frustrating way of moving through life, I’ve managed to make some progress because the trails I walk down are only a handful. I either try to become a writer or a designer or an artist or a musician or a storyteller of some kind. Or, and this is the worst, all of them simultaneously.

And this change is not as big as the ones I’ve made in the past. So there’s that.

The biggest change has come to this blog. It is the end of my Dear Reader, newsletter. I was always afraid of starting a long term commitment because I knew that sooner or later I’ll just not want to write these letters anymore. They aren’t any different from the posts I write. They’re mostly just a gimmick. So, if you subscribed to my emails to receive only these newsletters, then you might want to unsubcribe because now everything I post will be sent via email.